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kenapa e kerja dg orang ni selalu bikin capek. hanya b butuh duit. belum bisa mandiri cari duit makanya pi lamar kerja ko jadi capek begini. tapi semua hal juga pasti bikin capek, yang membedakan capeknya itu dapat duit ko sonde. bersyukur sa untuk hari ini, setidaknya beta masih bisa kerja dan punya penghasilan. kedepannya b mau buat strategi resign tanpa mengganggu beta punya finansial, so harus semangat. yang sudah lewat ya lewat, tidak bisa diperbaiki lagi. masa depan ya masa depan, toh belum tentu kita hidup sampai di masa depan. hiduplah di masa kini. ok itu saja pikiran saya hari ini. baru pulang kontrol dari poli psikiatri tadi siang makanya seru ju, ketong bisa diskusi dengan psikolog dan psikiater. daahh.

why am i not happy with my life even though i’m loved by my family? i feel like i can’t do my job properly. it’s frustrating to work as a content creator when it’s the only thing i know how to do. people say “learn a new skill,” but honestly… what skill? my brain feels tired before i even start. sometimes i just want to disappear somewhere quiet. away from expectations, deadlines, and things that constantly drain my energy. the saddest part is… this used to be my hobby. now it just feels exhausting. and yeah, my english is broken. but whatever.

why i am not happy with my life even though i am loved by family?, i just feels like i can't do my job properly. it is frustating to work as a content creator but it's all i can do. i don't know how to gain money beside being content creator. learn new skill? what skill? feels like i wanna go to somewhere quiet. i hate everything that consumes my energy like this. it was my hobby but now it is very frustating. *also fuck my english, lol. it's broken. y'all know that.

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